wholehearted: intimacy, courage and freedom in God

Living in the wait

on October 8, 2018

I refer to this year as the year of ‘living in the wait’. That place between my current reality and where I want to be. The place of longing and desire to step into the dreams God has placed on my heart.

The gap seems big at the moment. The chasm between here and my dreams is miles apart and although I have a strong conviction that I’m right where I should be, I just really want to be over there, living the dream!

Perhaps you’ve been in the wait too. You’ve had big dreams, a calling you feel is from God but the gap between your current reality and your dream is looking miles apart.

It can sometimes feel frustrating when so much is in our hearts for the future and it doesn’t look like anything’s happening that instead of a straight line from here to our dream, the road is full of twists and turns. We can feel disappointed and let down. We may even question if we’ve heard God right.

Although the wait has not been fun, God has met me here. He has grown me and stretched me and taught me things I would not have experienced without walking out the journey. He’s reminded me that the journey is just as important as the destination.

It’s a journey through valleys and mountain tops, deserts and resting beside quiet waters, places where we soar and places where we cry out to God to carry us through. Each place brings greater depth to my soul and a fresh revelation of God as He reveals Himself.

Character is forged in deep places of waiting on God. Depth is not forged when all is going well. Depth is forged as we walk out the journey, as we dig deep and press into God for all we need. As we follow where He leads, even when it doesn’t look like the path we want to take.

Without a doubt, the most precious gift of the journey from here to there is that we don’t walk it alone. Jesus has been my faithful companion… leading, guiding and encouraging. He is on this road with me, the one marked with joy and suffering. He is familiar with the way…in fact, He is the way.

And so the journey is full of beautiful encounters, moments where Jesus comforts, moments where He surprises, moments of sweet rest and refreshment, moments where He takes my hand and pulls me to heights I didn’t think I could go.

On the way there are people to love. God will detour our path, our agenda, our plans to share His love. Sometimes He takes us to places we don’t necessarily want to be because He loves the one and He wants us to also. God is teaching me to trust Him in the detours, to get side-tracked from my own agenda and jump onto His because the one is important.

God reminded me this week that this life I’ve been called to is one of great adventure! I can’t plan it out, control it, fast-track it. It’s a journey of the heart, of intimacy, depth and trust. A great faith adventure where I don’t always know the way ahead, but I know the One who takes me.

And so I’ve let go of the frustration of not being where I want to be and I’m trusting Jesus, my good Shepherd, to lead and guide me and walking in the confidence that He has my future.

Psalm 23 reminds me:

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
    He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
    he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.  (NIV)

Blessings as you walk out your great faith adventure!







4 responses to “Living in the wait

  1. Leisel Gray says:

    Oh Tam, Love it this. Thank you for sharing so beautifully your journey & heart. You put many of our experiences & thoughts on paper, into words. You bring clarity & hope to the journey as you write.

    Bless you as you take time to write & hear what God has to say to us. Thank you for your vulnerability x

    Love you & super duper proud of you ❤️


  2. Tammy says:

    Thanks beautiful friend! Love sharing the great faith adventure with you! ❤


  3. Jo says:

    I’m in a bit of a similar space!


  4. Vetti says:

    Awesome tamstar “…he loves the one and wants us to also” beautiful xxxx


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